This is all a bit random – but as thoughts that have been in my head occur, I kinda want to write them down. It’s my release, and now that I know that people do actually read these things, it’s a way of sharing my thoughts…

…about 2 ½ years ago, something happened in my life that has helped me to understand an awful lot of stuff that, prior to the event, made no sense whatsoever.

What was this event? My wife and I started ballroom dancing.

Now, nothing special in that, other than the way I feel about the ballroom dancing is the way I feel about my life, and a large analogy between ballroom

Hey all,

 Just an update,  my wife looks to be going ahead with the divorce which is killing me.

I have a question, her parents have offered me a sum of money to buy me out of the house ...it is alot less than am owed but will enable me to put a deposit down on another small house maybe which would allow my beautiful children then to visit and even stay over  but will I get taxed on this money ??

 

This is so unlike me....sharing my innermost fears and feelings of failure, but I feel inadequate at the moment and am crying as I write this.

 My ex husband left me in January 2002, with three kids currently aged 13,12 and 9. He had another child in November 2002 and divorced me in October 2005. 

He has irregular contact with the children and hasn't paid any child maintenance since January 2008, prior to this he paid £200 pcm.

My standard of living has dropped considerably since the break up, the children often go without and my debts often go unpaid. It is so so hard just to get by some