I am determined that this saturday I will feel empowered and in control.

Ex2b has contact in an hr so I am mentally preparing myself.

• Going to move my car out of the drive and across the driveway so he cant block me in like last wk.
  

Kids stuff will be packed for their day out ha ha- end up at his flat and miss the sunshine - trying hard not to think about what they would be doing with me park games etc.

• Given kids football etc may encourage ex2b to move of his bum

Taking my eldest for his prom suit which i cant really afford but hey who needs food anyway.

So the children have had plenty to eat

I feel sick - my head is pounding and most of all I never thought, he would do this to his children. Today I check my bank balance and have had to phone the csa. Why? because the payment was missing and my mortgage is due to be paid monday. After two phone calls I discover the reason the payment was missing because my ex, has given up work to claim benefits. Im paying the mortgage and without the csa payment, Im going to struggle - I think he has done this in order to force me to sell. I don't know whether or not I my head is going to explode or I want to be sick first and god only knows

Well, have spoken to the CSA this morning and they have confirmed he paid my CM this morning a week late.

Why does he do this? Power and control I guess. To cause me pain, to stress me out; why?

There is no other reason for it. My SM was paid into my bank account on Friday when he was paid, so why not the CM?

I now have to wait another 3 - 5 working days for my bank account to be credited with the money from the CSA, so even though I can now pay the mortgage it is going to be late. Something I don't need when my solicitor is currently writing to them to ask for their agreement to change the