Well where do I start?

The children are with their father for one of their few contact sessions; so I have 7 hours all to myself.

What do I want to be doing with this time? I know what I should be doing - housework, without the children demanding my time and distracting me from what needs doing.

I would love to be spending the time with my "partner" (questionable terminology I know but can't let go of that just yet; don't think he wants to either); frolicking on the beach, walking along holding hands; just relishing the time we have together.

So, "me" time. This is such a rare thing I am not sure

Thanks guys for the helpful comments.

I have just been asked how my day has been!!! I said apart from meeting her at mediation it was great. Can't talk to her anymore about this, it makes me too angry. I really don't think she has the first idea of what is happening. Even her mother thinks she is losing it. This is according to my mother who has spoken to hers on the phone - almost the first contact since the children were born.
She needs a shrink not a solicitor or mediator.

But did have a good time playing 'vollyball' with the children this evening. I think the children really enjoy this

Well, I went to mediation.Very interesting to say the least.I found that the woman mediator was very unbiased.For me personally it has helped me move on in one session.I have agreed to sort out the financial disclosure with them rather than a solicitor.Saving me about £3000 if it works.My wife was very surprise to have to admit that she was a part owner of a house in Spain. The secrets out.... and more to come.The unreasonable behaviour from her has been shown up for the first time in an interview with somebody else. I now feel better for that fact alone.

I will talk later about the