Hi everyone,

I am feeling so confused and drained the last couple of weeks have been a nightmare for me - i just dont know what to do anymore my husband is insisting that he loves me and kids and wants to come home and i try desparately to make sense of everything that has happened but i just cant.   I mean why have an affair if you love your wife - is that even possible?    How can you be caught out three times having an affair with the same woman after your wife has given you two chances and then say you love your wife and want to come back?  Im sorry but i cannot understand it.

My husband

Need to blog and stay close to wiki at the mo, was going to hibernate for a few days but I know that is the worst thing to do.

Yesterday he arrived at 6pm as planned. sat down and I asked for exact details of his current relationship with her and asked where he was at and where he wanted to go with me. He said he is living day to day and no idea where he is at or where he is going. She is a very close friend and it is at the moment non sexual. He couldn't explain how everyone thought they were a couple, he said other people lie and twist things. He cares for me but no love now. He said my

I have been talking to s2bx on the phone, after trying unsucessfully for a face to face meeting.After I found out that he missed a few payments on the life insurance policy and mortgage I wanted to know what was happening,as I don't want the house repossessed and if either of us drop down dead the life insurance to be paid out.Finally sorted it out with him and he had been arranging to pay the outstanding payments back.So that is a weight off my mind, even though I find it hard to trust him, as why if he can make overpayments to catch up on payments could he not have simply paid things in the