Hello again.

I didn't think I'd be back so soon but just need to write some stuff down so that I can offload.

Just received a phone call from my husband to arrange contact with our son. He is coming this weekend to take him out. That is ok, although, as is becoming the pattern, he has no idea what he is ‘going to do with him'. He then told me that he will be unable to see our son the following weekend because he is away on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday of that week as his girlfriend is taking him away for his birthday, and then she is going away on Sunday, so he will want to spend time with

Scumbag arrived at 10.30-after emailing that he would come at 11.00. He said he was just going to take some things out of the shed. I said I would prefer him to start with the things from the house. He then informed me that he didn't have anything in the house, so I reminded him of all the stuff he had been storing in the loft etc.He told me I could dispose of all that, to which I said I wanted him to do the hard work of moving it, as it was his property.

He then informed me that he wouldn't be taking the shed etc as he hadn't got a van. I told him that I was expecting him to take everything,

Back to feeling rock bottom again. I thought I would be ok but after yesterdays panic I am emotionally back to being a complete mess again. I drank far too much last night as my head is a bad place to be and thought and tried to be good as in NO TEXTING!!!! Yeah right, did the begging ones.

When am i going to realise it is over. He is lying to me when he says things, I know now he wants his both lives, not just me. I gotta get it in my head he has moved on (he didn't deny barmaid was still on scene when he replied this time - more hurt). He has new life, new husband stealing tart, lovely new