so, been a busy few weeks since my initial flurry of typing.

Head's in a complete mess. She moved out 11/6, came back fathers' day. She told me she'd made a terrible mistake (again) and that she realised she couldn't leave me and that I had always been there for her. Anyway I lost the plot, ranted and raved.  She raved back complained that I was being unreasonable (what, should I have fallen to my knees and praised the lord?), threw her adultery in my face etc etc etc.  Upshot was she stayed, but in the spare room. Happy fathers day, eh?

Next  few days I try to get her to tell me what's

It has been about a fortnight since my last blog and i think i may have jumped the gun!

I honestly felt that i could get through this and hopefully be happy one day but i'm sinking, i think that i have finally ran out of steam because i still cannot get rid of her from my thoughts.

Our situation is difficult because we run a business although recently she agreed to just come in part time (tues, wed, thurs) so she has an extended long weekends, every weekend (crafty cow) but i cant say anything because i suggested she take some time away!

On friday i had to speak to her on an urgent business

Well haven't blogged for a while but can't sleep at all tonight.

Have been trying to converse with b'atch via e-mail as it stops the kids getting involved to much but I don't know why I bother. Every e-mail I sent she send to her "friendly" shrink before she every replies I feel it would be quick just to send it direct to him?

Anyway no progress on anything much, she managed to forget to tell me about sports day on Wednesday until my daughter asked Tuesday night if I was going, how I wish I could have cancelled my meeting to be there, but al most normal people will understand that is not