Well I hadnt realised I hadnt written for a while. - Ive been so  busy havent given it a thought.  Which i suppsoe is a good thing.

 My little one has now had 3 contact session (god what a riduculous term!), and he has had fab 121 time with his daddy, onwards and upwards, the next obstacle is for my x to explain his 4 year old son to his 11 year old son!!! and visa versa which i kwnow my little one will take in his stride all going well, as long as he is made to feel welcome in the new family. i am not holding my breath that this will happen, my X has delayed for 11 years owning up to his

Today has been my 1st mediation appiontment ,which was stressing me to the hilt before i arrived.

When i left my x he had a nervous breakdown apparently, all I know is he stalked me, harrassed me, threatened me and made me scared to be alone in my own house, and made me make the very hard decsion to not allow him to see his son, as i was not convinced my son was safe.

My x filed for divorce when he was very angry and upset, blamining the breakdown of the marriage on me, and the 5 month affair i had had.  Not the 11 year affair he had been having (wasnt an affair he said as i had full

I haven't written in a while and I feel it really helps me to write down and share my divorce experience with you all.

Lately, my stbx and myself have been getting on a little better. We even managed a coffee together at Starbucks! Anybody and everybody have been commenting on how I need to be a little tougher to stop the trampling from her but I do try and refuse to be walked over.

This week, things have changed. My stbx had words with me concerning the state of the house (I live in the FH, she moved out to her brothers) as it is in a state. This is very true as I've let things go because she