Hiya Just to let you guys know that if you ever feel like chatting with an old hand at this carry on (tongue in cheek) then please do not hesitate to contact me, I've been here for a very long time although not recently and have now come out the other end, done lots of things (not gonna say I regret them) and been many places to get to this stage but I'm now very happy and dare I say it "content" with my lot, I even love myself now! :) I do have a new partner and I know you will have prob heard this many a time but I know in my heart and soul that he is just so good for me and hopefully he

My son has seen my ex with a friend of our`s she`s in her 50`s he used to call her a ugly troll, well like i say me son has seen them twice holding hands when i think about it while i lay in bed every night alone and he was at the pub in her and her man`s company he used to come home and say that poor woman this and that but still called her a ugly troll, shes welcome to him he will like it as she likes her drink to so well matched, never heard from him over a wk regarding divorce so hoping papers been signed and returned. Enough about him im really happy with john was a month yesterday

Not good. I guess I have to write it down to admit it. I'm 6'2" and used to weight 197lbs. Cancer shaved 30 pounds off me and now I hover around 170lbs. I've had a rough few days and I know I'm losing the will to eat and the weight will fall. Not good at all. The wife and I had a massive fight last night. It was awful. Her ability to come up with new lines that hurt me is amazing. Last night it was "There is absolutely nothing lovable about you". Wow. We both agree that we need to move to divorce and we will do so. Then, I know, my world will be like Patrick described. Less and less time with