In replying to a blog today it reminded me of the letters I wrote to my stbx which I never sent.  I found the emotional stages in a book and they were stated as being;

 SHOCK, ANGER, PAIN, HATRED, GRIEVING, HEALING

The letter idea was from the healing stage - a letter to your partner expressing some of the emotions you have experienced. Should be written, not to be actually sent. Imagine that everything you write is heard and understood the way you want it to be. 

ie.I feel angry because ...... I feel so angry when ...... I don't like ...... I wish ..... I feel sad because ..... I feel afraid

Have just found out that my Decree Nisi is set for early September.  Receiving the solicitor's letter was yet another 'blow' in this long and painful process.  Although I knew the Decree Nisi would come, it still felt like a shock to actually read the words.  The letter said that my husband is entitled to a divorce on the grounds of 'unreasonable behaviour' which, even after 8 months into the process, I find deeply hurtful and ironic.  (In different circumstances, I could have brought a divorce against my husband for unreasonable behaviour that I have tolerated for years.  I could not have

Have just ssen my daughter who saw her dad today for the first time in 5 weeks.  I am really upset not because she saw him because i hoped he would turn up this time (he has let her down 3 times)  I dont know why i am upset.  Can't stop crying.

I have had a bad day, on the verge of tears all day.  I think him seeing our daughter has brought it all back.  She said he seemed cold.  He still insists i threw him out and I wont be getting a penny.

Why did it have to be like this.  Why couldn't he love me enough.  I miss him so much and just want to talk to him.  I know there's no going  back but it