Well I have done it Offered her the £8.5k, and paying her part of the divorce bill £450 So over the next 3 years (at least) of my life I have to pay back £9k, at least its interest free to my good old Dad - The best Dad anyone can wish for! Im the applicant in divorce, shes the cheater, I should feel releived but I feel ROTTEN to the core. I feel like I have been bullied, placed over a barrel, shes had my pants down given me a good wacking and a kick in the teeth too. Not felt this bad for months - Cannot wait for her to leave the MH now she says she will be gone before next

I am having a darkest before the dawn moment and rather than lie awake in bed, I thought I'd try to get rid of my feelings here. I've started to receive messages from his extended family. Messages of shock, sadness but most of all, they shout their total ignorance of the reason why stbx left. I don't blame his mum, she's a lovely lady and stbx has obviously left the dirty work of spreading the word, to her. and the story is that we have 'fallen apart'. Which is actually a good description. But it leaves out the real horror. That for eight years, our whole marriage, three children, he has

I am getting a bit tougher, but have been feeling quite unwell today. And tonight received an email from him, got his address and surprise surprise he is hardly slumming it in London....all mod cons, described online as 'luxury hotel living'...yes everyone I know I shouldn't have googled.....was a moment of weakness. The next revelation according to the script will be that 'he just met someone', not that he was ever having an affair of course, he promised me that he wasn't after all.... This when I am contemplating the future for me and the kids and what is important for us to keep and