so tomorrow is the day my ex gets married to that thing, do i wish him well not at all, hope he forgets his decree absolute hope it pours down on that beach.Am i bitter no angry ,angry at the way he has treated me and our children , angry the decree absolute was granted without my knowledge , angry we have a FH soon , angry he could forget his own children angry he plays games still dictates what sort of life the children can have as he picks and chooses when he wants to pay child support.In our whole marriage he paid for us to go on holiday once yet for her nothing is too much even down to

I didn't sleep well last night...I went for therapy in the morning...I had good session...one of those what leaves you feeling stronger and with hope...

It was easy lazy day at work...I went on chat with 2 guy "friends" from my "old" life...life before my ex, me moving to US, my marriage...before things got so complicated...

You would think that thoughts about my old life would be comforting...good memories...well...not really...as longer as I'm in therapy and I'm working on healthy approach to relationships as more I find out that most of my relationships with males were/are messed up...some

My Mum was buried on Mothers Day.

 

I was dreading the day anyway as I wasn't sure if my kids would even remember. The dread was justified even though it was for the wrong reasons.

 

It wasn't unexpected but somehow it was the last news I expected on Fri. The last few days have been a blur. I miss her so much and it doesn't seem real.

 

Mum has been my rock in the last couple of years, well all my life really but despite really bad health she has supported me at every point in this divorce hell. Divorce was alien to her, husband & wife, for better for worse, till death us do part, but I was