Not said much for a while. Not even thanks for the comments and support - sorry.

Thought things were improving, but seems not. Other half can't move on and keeps referring back to problems of previous years (caused by us both and I certainly can't deny my part in them), conveniently forgetting efforts I've made in past year, and hurt she has caused and deception she has shown during that same period. I'm not perfect by a long shot and understand where I do need to make changes, but god I'm doing my best to be better. But it's all one way. I still feel as if I'm expected to be the only one to

We lived together 3 years, bought a nice house and got married. We didnt have children as i couldn't stay pregnant for long, always miscarried around 8 weeks! Hubby had 4 kids from 1st marriage and we all got on pretty well, they stayed with us some weekends & on holidays, they lived away so contact wasnt constant.

I thought we happy together on the whole, despite his problems with alcohol & pill addiction (codeine dependency).

I encouraged him to leave his employmennt at sea & pursue a new career through college. I supported him for 3 long years until he graduated with full honours, i was so

Today, or rather yesterday, 8 September, the Decree Nisi was read in court.  I was thinking about it as I sat at home today but it was as if nothing had changed.  There was only a slight hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach.

My STBX came home from work and did not mention a word about the Decree Nisi.  I made no comment.  It was best not to say anything.  Divorce seems to be taken as such a 'normal' thing these days.  People I have known for years (though I don't see many of them anymore) react to the news with mild regret but they are not really saddened as such.  Marriage is not taken