Well, woke up this morning and thought, do something with yourself girl, take pride in your appearance, slap a bit of lippy on and go get them, who ever "them" is.

Had so many comments in the playground this morning. People saying how well I looked, had I lost weight, was I going somewhere special today?

 Anyway, parked the car in Tesco Carpark and do the shopping. Met my friend in the supermarket and passed the time of day. Anyway, getting the girls in the car to go, my friend walks passed the car and says good-bye.

 As I pull out of the parking space I realise there is a hand written note

Dear Blog

After last night's horrendous torture. I finally relaxed a little.

He came up to my bedroom to say goodbye at about 7.30am - he is going to golf and I have told him not to come back to night as my daughter (who lives in norwich is staying on her way back from heathrow -she's been to Egypt) and she will not tolerate him and I can expect her to drive all the way back to norwich at 1am !  He has agreed, although he was a bit nasty and wouldn't tell me where he was staying.

Anyway ... youngest daughter has a dvd from blockbusters so she text him to come and get it and he rang me to see if

Wednesday I got a call from the housing association saying they might have a house for me!!.. its being refurbished, new bathroom, new kitchen.. I'm very excited and a bit worried that I won't get it. OMG I so hope I get it....fresh start for me and the kids!!!!

Its been awful walking on eggshells here for the last few months in the middle of a divorce and still living with HIM!! ugh.. the kids have suffered as he has been telling them its "all my fault" even though he agreed we needed to split. He told them he still loved me... which he explained to me as meaning he still cared about me.... I