I'd been so looking forward to yesterday. Silly really, but the kids had been around me so much (especially H because she'd finished school in May), that I really needed "ME TIME".

Yesterday, they were back at school! At last! ...and her, COW as I've nicknamed her, was at work, and I had the whole house to myself.

Now, I'd taken a bit of time here, and a little time there, to start - and bring up-to-date - this blog. I was almost at the point where all the crap highlights from the past had been entered, the history had been written about so-to-speak, and this blog was then ready for my

just recieved letter from his sol    telling me to get out of my home,been  with this b###### for 19 years ,had heart attack in 1996 only 48 now.two kids from previous  marriage,hes been seeing is new b##### for the last twelve months,god she is so ugly,only found out 6 weeks ago.our son 15 is devastated,my grandson 3 who lives with me is also devastated,we own the house  no morgage ,hes self employed we have a shop, that he cant run by himself,hes so thick,hes also had my windows smashed in and my car vandalised,can he get me

Well he doesn't love me, its official. He doesn't know who he wants or where his life is going. She (barmaid) doesn't know he has been trying to sort things  out(well she does as I told her) and he isn't sure who he wants now. He said tonight he needs to talk to his mum when she is over from cyprus next week to help him work out what to do. He was honest tonight about how close they are and currently non sexual. He speaks to her most days he said. Sorry can't write more at mo as so upset. finish tomorrow, will finish