I think that many of the blog entries I've been writing, and the comments being received, are serving only to re-enforce one thing... that my wife and I are incompatible.

You see, one of the biggest things that I notice is the level of moaning that goes on in our household. She'll use many situations to have a moan, and I'll moan at her for having a moan.

Take this morning... I'm in the bedroom looking out of the window at the rain coming down, and she's in front of the mirror doing her make up...

"...what do you want to stand in front of the window for, you're blocking my light..." would be the

This is beautiful lotus flower....

Do you know the meaning of Lotus flower?

Lotus root is under muddy ground...but through the muddy place, but thier shoot is coming up then it shows beautiful flower....   It means...even you have to go through "unclear" and "heavy" place..eventually you can see blue sky and show beautiful flower...

So don't worry about your situation, of course it is hard, dark days,, but eventually you can see blue sky...    

When I lost my sister, a prist at temple (Buddism) told me how to get through deep greif.. and told me about lotus flower.

This is for everyone, every

When I met up with Bob on Tuesday, it was the first time for a while.

I'd been keen to fill him in on the latest, the latest being the fact that I'd found support in this website.

For a long time I've been thinking of having an affair. It would be my way of demonstrating to myself that not all women were as selfish, unreasonable and controlling as the one I'd married.

There are special websites for married people who want to have an extramarital affair, but without losing their marriage. In fact, I'd even asked if I could use his credit card to pay for a membership so that it wouldn't  show on