Firstly, may I apologise.

I haven't been in wiki for some weeks.

Before, people used to comment on my blog with very positive c0mments, and with all of the support and understanding I received, I felt strong enough to take life on by myself.

Silly me!

What I forgot however is that - people don't really change. Neither should they, I guess. I mean, I know my wife is very controlling, and that's the reason why we clash, but it's absolutely not my place to try and change her.

There will be, without a shadow of doubt, some man out there who doesn't look on her as being controlling. She is, for me

As the days go by, I'm wondering if she has actually slept with this guy or just wants me to believe she has to push me away. She passed me in her car tonight around 9pm (I was driving in the opposite direction). Odd that she wouldn't be with her new man on a Friday night, I also find it strange that she paid for the meal out I discovered on her credit card, surely if this guy was wining and dining her, he would have paid (I know she would have let him).

Her mother called me last night to see how I was doing (she rings at least once a week). She told me that she is very miserable and has not

 

I woke up to the sound of silence. No one home only me.....

I suppose I should get used to this feeling as its how it's going to be...

I'm not feeling myself at the moment struggling to be positive about my future.....  Thinking about the next few weeks and all that comes with Christmas and new year is making me feel sad...  I just don't see what I have to look forward too at the moment....

I feel like im going through the motions for my son and once he has gone to his dads on Christmas day I will be on my own and won't be celebrating Christmas...

I have been invited to a fiend's house but