As I mentioned in last entry, I should concentrate on my health and work.

I know this and keep telling me so.

About 3 weeks ago, I met this guy and had drunken nite, we flirted and I knew that it was just a drunken nite.

But after we exchanged a few e-mails, we decided to see sometimes without having any relationship and he suggested to meet up next month.

And today, I sent a short e-mail asking how he was which I've got no reply. And I'm assuming this is no from him.

Silly me really. I dont want relationship, but this deal will cause a problem for me.

I know I'm still  too wrecked and cannot do

To make me concentrate on recovering, I will start this blog.

As ppl here are so nice and experienced something very difficult, I always feel better and feel positive after chatting ppl in here.

At the moment, I'm trying to deal with my depression and do better on my work.

In this summer, I was flirty and I did enojoy summer itself.

Thinking last summer, I cried everyday and felt no hope, I appreciate this.

Now summer's gone and I don't feel like flirting anymore,  start to think I want to have someone who can give me a cuddle.

But I know it is too early and I should deal with my health first as

                      This is my last blog, i dont want to do this anymore. I know this probably works for lots of people, but not for me, silly really, but i dont know why im even writing this, but im going to take my sad existence and keep it to myself.Dont worry im not going to do anythink stupid,i have to be strong for my kids!!! Hopefully i will get my date for my counselling soon,i could certainly do with some right about now,even though i suspect it will be another few months yet.One thing is for certain, i wont be hoping for a long life,just long enough for my youngest to be old