I thought, I was doing kinda alright.

But last couple of days, depression kicked in again worse than ever.  Got headache everyday, and reduce into tears without any reason while Im working. Just sad and lonely. ALso I always have nausea and although Im hungry, if I eat I feel really sick.

I dont see any hope ahead of my life. Is there any reason I should be suffering from this?

Two days ago, as soon as I got up, I felt really sad and started to cry and felt so much stress.  So at nite, I went out to the pub and stupidly took shots. Obviously I got drunk and my mate helped me to get to the

Well folks ... I managed to drag myself back to work and I am glad I did :)

It was nice to get back and get back into the thick of things ! I do realise that I am responsible totally for myself now I am alone and that developing my career to secure my financial future is vitally important. Keeping things together at work is vitally important to me but occasionally it all gets too much and I need to take some time away to regroup, get some 'head space' and get things back into perspective. Obviously I cannot do this too often but sometimes it is necessary for my mental health so I take it

I have that sinking feeling again

I have'nt felt like this for a long while

I want to say it isn't depression. I want to say it isn't uncertainty. I want to say lots of things but I am not sure where the truth lies.

I need not to sink. The last time this happened I sank very slowly, and woke up a couple of years later to realize that i was already sunk but han't noticed till it was too late. No one noticed till it was too late.

This time I recognise the symptoms. I need not to let myself sink. and I don't know what to do to stop it.

I realise it needs some action on my part. But I cannot see me