I wrote this a few weeks ago, when I was trying to understand why I couldn't just go ahead and write my petition. It's been a long haul, and I 've sent it in now. We'll see what kind of fallout there is now.

There's a kind of panic that grips me every now and then. I don't know which is worse -- being in the marriage with all its volatility, or being out of it and having my new-found peace of mind taken from me again with my new partner- that- was (almost) deciding it was best for us both if I let him go. I never had him to let go of, not in the true sense. I was so afraid of what my

evening Mr Blogman and wiki peeps...

well what a crap rubbish week ive had !!!

had mum and hubby round for dinner tuesday night all went well until i told mum i was spending xmas on my own here at home...

i want it more than anything, want them to come to me for breakfast then for them to leave and me to have my own special xmas day...doing what i want to do, watching rubbish tv, drinking bubbly - all day - and eating yummy food..with my cats........

god aged 41 and have never spent xmas day alone....it might be the only xmas i get to do it, plus the fact that i simply cannot do the family thing

Hi all, newby here.

Firstly, the breakdown of our marriage of 11 years was entirely my fault.  I did not have an affair but did do some really selfish, unthinking and very stupid stuff.  Thankfully we had no kids so it was only my ex and myself who had to go through it.  I have huge respect for all you who can handle this and carry on bringing up a family.

We divorced with the cause being my "unreasonable" behaviour which I did not contest but did tell my wife throughout that I loved her and wanted to try and stay together.  We split the house equity 50/50 and I moved back home to Scotland.  I