good morning all well ive decided to write my days down on a blog - to try and help me get through the weeks ahead ive been married for 33 years and thought i had a wonderful happy marriage and the most wonderful husband whom i would have died for - WRONG !!!!!!!!!!!! 4 years ago i discovered he was sexting a woman and buying her gifts (and according to him she was just a friend !) well i forgave and thought that we had got past the emotional rollercoaster ride and things were good again WRONG !!!!!!!!!! 3 years ago the same thing happned again !! this time i confronted him at his

Well...here i am again. Thought i was feeling a little stronger and i'm back down. I know what i'm feeling right now is denial. My denial is about the barely there excuses he has for not being married anymore...i can't articulate the frustration and confusion i am having. His excuses aren't good enough! Why can't he give me something better? I mean worse than what he's telling me? That way i can digest it better. All of this could have taken some work but it shouldn't be grounds for divorce. I'm now angry. Great....It never ends. How am i supposed to just move on? My life i was building

Someone asked me the other day what's going on in my head...I had no idea where even to begin...how can you portray it to someone? The below is what my thoughts are doing right now: I love her. Can't believe she's going. Was it really that bad? What did I do wrong? I love her. Is this just a blip? Can the future bring us a new start? I love her. Could I have done more? It's the last six months that did it, I should have been more perfect. I let her down. I love her. I've lost her. My own stupid fault. How could I not see things were slipping? Why did she not communicate earlier? I love