I am on a downer this morning and so far it is lasted 9 hours.  Woke up at 3.00 am and couldn't get back to sleep.  I don't know what it is like to have a normal night's sleep any more as I haven't slept properly since hubby left at the start of November.  I go to bed absolutely knackered and then bing I wake up any time from 0230 onwards.  All that goes through my mind is my situation, how to get myself to a better place emotionally, what I would love to say/do to him and her etc etc. 

 Anyway back to work now

Hi,

 I have been separated now for 18 months and am due for an FDR hearing in a couple of weeks. I am struggling to come up with a solution to meet my requirements and talk about not being able to see the wood for the trees!

Background - I am now 37 and have been unable to work for some time now due to Rheumatoid Arthritis and spinal problems. I am in receipt of Incapacity Benefit and DLA (low rate care, high rate mobility).

Marriage put me living 250 miles away from family and I now find that I am really struggling to cope alone, I don't need major help all the time but on those occasions that

I am writing this to help me understand what has happened.

I am married for 14 years with three children, 20, 14 and 11, eldest is not my Stbx.  Dec 09 he started acting funny, you know how a wife knows, discovered after asking him many times what was going on, he said nothing, that he had been having an online affair with someone in America, he even told one of his online friends that they were both leaving their partners and children to be together.

It broke my heart to read it.  I confronted him and he still tried to deny it but I had the evidence of all the emails.  He said he was just