I'm taking the advice here that seems to be unanimous to me...no use whatsoever crying, begging, pleading in front of her. I agree it gets me nowhere. However, I also agree with LW when he suggested that it at least shows her the strength of my feelings for her...I really wouldn't want her to leave thinking I couldn't give a toss either way...I could...and I'm hurt...and I love her...and I want that she knows that. But OK...now she does...she's got the gyst...and like someone said to me previously, there's no sense repeating that message over and over. Anyway, the last time I cried in front

So, my therapist told me to recite this poem at least six times a day while walking and see the impact it has on me...."As I walk, as I walk.....The universe is walking with me.....In beauty it walks before me......In beauty it walks behind me......In beauty it walks below me.....In beauty it walks above me.....Beauty is on every side.....As I walk, I walk with Beauty". The impact is actually striking. When I walk and recite this out loud I do see the beauty all around me. I was skeptical but open to the possibility. I not only notice the beauty but also feel a warmth in my chest that spreads

Sorry if I'm being a bit of a "blog hog" lately - but I have no desire to do anything else other than scour these forums and blogs in order to find shreds of hope, inspiration, and comfort. I'm never disappointed...but it's a short lived injection of positivity at this stage. It only lasts about a minute at a time and as soon as I turn my back on the computer screen or walk away from it I am hit by the tide of shock again and it all comes flooding back. She comes back today from her escapades in London over the last few days. I'm picking her up from the station in two hours and then we'll go