To make me concentrate on recovering, I will start this blog.

As ppl here are so nice and experienced something very difficult, I always feel better and feel positive after chatting ppl in here.

At the moment, I'm trying to deal with my depression and do better on my work.

In this summer, I was flirty and I did enojoy summer itself.

Thinking last summer, I cried everyday and felt no hope, I appreciate this.

Now summer's gone and I don't feel like flirting anymore,  start to think I want to have someone who can give me a cuddle.

But I know it is too early and I should deal with my health first as

hi,

I took another overdose on friday.  From research on the internet I should be dead but I vomited up most of the tablets.

I'm meant to survive this, there is a reason to live.  My stbx knew where i was and could have saved me but did not care.

 Last sun nite he told his cousin to tell me that he loved me but did not want to be with me.  I had my plans all week.

I'm ok.  I will survive!  For me, from now on.

hugs all, please learn from my experience.  He is not worth

We lived together 3 years, bought a nice house and got married. We didnt have children as i couldn't stay pregnant for long, always miscarried around 8 weeks! Hubby had 4 kids from 1st marriage and we all got on pretty well, they stayed with us some weekends & on holidays, they lived away so contact wasnt constant.

I thought we happy together on the whole, despite his problems with alcohol & pill addiction (codeine dependency).

I encouraged him to leave his employmennt at sea & pursue a new career through college. I supported him for 3 long years until he graduated with full honours, i was so