Well here I am 3 months after the split...

What a time I have had, I think I am over the worst of it now - well I hope anyway. The last few times I have seen my ex I have felt nothing except for relief that we are no longer together.

Her new fellow is welcome to her as long as he is good to my son I have no problem. The relief is that I feel that I am becoming myself again I was unhappy for the last couple of year being in a loveless relationship and realise now how bad I was being treated by my ex.

It has taken me longer than I expected but I am really starting to feel the real Paul is coming

I've woken up today and felt a wave of desire come over me to "Write It Down".

 You see, nearly a year ago something happened in our house (which I'll write about later).

 In my eyes, what happened was, well - extra-ordinary.

So upset by it was I at that time, I took myself off to the doctors. I had been meaning to go anyway, I'd been feeling low up until that point anyway and needed to chat with someone about the levels of my drinking that had been rising.

 I suppose like all qualified people, she did something quite clever. Of course the drinking is a bad idea, but what's important is what's

Note to self:

Just a little upset about a comment that was left on my blog yesterday, blog entry entitled "My life's analogy".

Explanation - when things happen in your life, it's easy to become obsessed by it. So, if someone makes a comment about your weight, you can easily find yourself looking in every reflection of a shop window, or mirror, to see if you're putting on weight. Or, if you find out someone has been cheating on you, you normal rational goes out the window, and jealousy and suspicion creep in, which are not normally your traits.

The thing that has happened in my life is that my