I've woken up today and felt a wave of desire come over me to "Write It Down".

 You see, nearly a year ago something happened in our house (which I'll write about later).

 In my eyes, what happened was, well - extra-ordinary.

So upset by it was I at that time, I took myself off to the doctors. I had been meaning to go anyway, I'd been feeling low up until that point anyway and needed to chat with someone about the levels of my drinking that had been rising.

 I suppose like all qualified people, she did something quite clever. Of course the drinking is a bad idea, but what's important is what's

Note to self:

Just a little upset about a comment that was left on my blog yesterday, blog entry entitled "My life's analogy".

Explanation - when things happen in your life, it's easy to become obsessed by it. So, if someone makes a comment about your weight, you can easily find yourself looking in every reflection of a shop window, or mirror, to see if you're putting on weight. Or, if you find out someone has been cheating on you, you normal rational goes out the window, and jealousy and suspicion creep in, which are not normally your traits.

The thing that has happened in my life is that my

I've absolutely no idea what I'm doing, or if anybody will either read or be interested in my blog, but sometimes in life one needs a place to scream - and I'm hoping this'll turn out to be the place for me to do it.

If this blog continues, I'm reckoning that things will kinda start slotting themselves into place, a sort of "self Counselling" service. So here goes, and sorry to any readers for any future ramblings!!

I need to talk about it, the whole story - about the crap childhood that led me into a crap marriage that I'm desperate to escape from. But I've no idea if this is the place to do