5/08/2004

I had to cancel 12:00 – 1:00pm with my solicitor I can remember feeling rundown with a chest infection: pneumonia, also I am generally being given very much the run-around for court, that I hardly saw   that much of my solicitor back then. I would generally phone her if something came up my fone bills were astronomical   back then. I should have gone for a blackberry it would have paid for it’s self by now.

 When I finally got in her office she too was buried in paperwork, just as well we were not big women, as there was only just room elbow room in her tiny office. I did

No much to report this week, I have spent as much time in the office as possible to avoid her.

This is her 2 week 'holiday', even though she is out of work now. She was going away to family but having fallen out with them all she is back at home. At least I am seeing the children who are being great. Who knows what they make of it all.

Father in law has ben staying this week as well to add to the fun, sharing a room with his daughter (ie stbx). Don't think that is quite normal and what do the children think? Daughter had the 'adult lessons' in phse last term so who knows?

Main issue has

Have been reading everyone's blogs and they all say that writing things down helps so thought i would give it a go.

 Have to go to Court tomorrow to discuss more contact for my ex to have the kids.  Have agreed that he can have them overnight every second weekend and on a Sunday on the intervening weekends on the condition that the tart he has been having an affair with is not there.  He has agreed.  Feel sick at the thought of my babies going away from my overnight. 

 Don't really know what else to say except that 4 months down the line I still cant get the images of him with another woman