Well, this is my first blog although have been a member of the site for a while, but had a bit of a liberating experience this morning.   Quick synopsis first of why I am here.   Husband told me he had fallen out of love with me and was moving out at the beginning of July - all the cliches in the the book.  I was pretty much left in limbo until the truth actually came out a couple of weeks ago. She's 26, loves him and he loves her, well he loved her until a couple of weeks ago and decided that he wanted me back, I didnt want him back, but she wasnt happy about that - suffice to say idle

Wow, I think I have been awake all night!

He said ysterday that he hadn't loved me enough and when I asked him if he ever loved me he said probably not - what is love and what is this want that you keep talking about.

I felt physically sick when I came to bed my life can't feel any worse.  I have posted mine and peters astrology charts on a forum I belong today for the first - I knew they would crucify the relationship .... I don't know why I did it - they all said there was no hope and their was an obstacle and he was going through a midlife crisis and pluto is on the ascendant so loss and

  So much has happened .... i am in such pain so I thought I would try one of these blogs to see how I go... I can't commit to it and my writings may be rambling, abstract or pathetic but here goes. so much has already happened can't go over all that here

6 September

Got up really early 5 am as radiator broken in hall and is boiling hot and worried about costs!! he got up and helped me turn off with some pliers.

he went to golf today ... tom came round for breakfast and off they went. he came back with his hair cut looking all lovely but i didn't tell him.

spoke to him in passing on way back