I think this has been the worst week I have ever had. After my last blog where he said he didn't love me I hit the bottom. I wouldn't commit suicide but it's what my brain was telling me to do, I was throwing up, non stop crying and well you all know what it's like. It got worse on friday as my 15yr old had enough and went to my sisters. Before people think why didn't I go to the dr before to get help, I couldn't, I was waiting for a medical report to be done for a new job that I start on 1st Oct, I need the job as it is my fresh start and without it I can't afford mortgage. The report was

Today, or rather yesterday, 8 September, the Decree Nisi was read in court.  I was thinking about it as I sat at home today but it was as if nothing had changed.  There was only a slight hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach.

My STBX came home from work and did not mention a word about the Decree Nisi.  I made no comment.  It was best not to say anything.  Divorce seems to be taken as such a 'normal' thing these days.  People I have known for years (though I don't see many of them anymore) react to the news with mild regret but they are not really saddened as such.  Marriage is not taken

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What is it with the unpredictability of my moods!?!

I woke up this morning feeling really down. I sat in bed crying my eyes out, trying to figure out what I felt sad about, but there was nothing in particular, just a feeling of emptiness. I considered staying in my pyjamas & sulking for the day, but knew that this wouldn't actually help me at all. My son had a friend over so I decided to occupy myself by going to the garden centre to buy some plants & seeds. I phoned a couple of friends to see if they wanted to come but neither was keen, so I went alone.

Whilst at the garden centre, I