Am in court this afternoon to extend my Non-Molestation Order, having to self rep because my legal aid case was discharged and couldn't be reinstated in time.

To say I am nervous is putting it lightly. Not really had time to think about it until today, just the 2 little girls at home now as the older 3 went back to school this morning.

Thank you to those of you that pm'd me with messages of support last night and also for the texts. I will go in with my friends from Wiki holding my hand.

I will be on my own with nobody for support but will draw strength from my friends on here sending me good

well it is now officially my wedding anniversary, as the decree absolute is till not through, so I have decided to blog about how far I feel I have come in the 11 months since we split.

I have gone through turmoil,anger,hurt,rage,pain,sadness,tears, crying myself to sleep,dispair and self doubt I would ever feel right about anything again.

Looking back to this time last year when I would have been sitting in a restaurant,with my nice fancy card with sentiments written in and wondering why on earth he felt he had to write things and choose me the soppiest romantic card and assure me he loved me

Hi!

Right now I feel empty. My son goes back to school tomorrow & I go back to work. It seemed like I was looking forward to having this time off for ages & it has been great, giving me time to breathe & think (& spend time in Wiki!). I have noticed a change in my son too. He seems a lot calmer & happier than he has been for ages- I'm sure that just seeing me less stressed has contributed greatly to his well being. Now that the holidays are over, I am feeling less enthusiastic- I am struggling to find things to look forward to & I think I really need to put something in place so that I can