well its 4.25, puring with rain, dark, daughter and boyfriend watching saw 2 ! how romantic, the stbx has just left with her little pink sports bag, yep she is staying with him tonight, at the moment its 5 out of seven, and when she goes its cold and calculated, and another stab in the back, god how many knives can you fit in to someones back, she cant live with him she proved that, twice she has tried and twice they have fought and like an idiot i took her back, but every time she does it its the kids i really feel for, how can she keep doing it? she shows no remorses whatsoever, its mental

And that is not to underestimate what divorce is for those going through it.

Our latest session was last Friday and it is Wednesday today. It has taken me that long to actually gather my thoughts and try and make some sense of them.

It started with me finishing off about my childhood. It's always a cliche in films to have the line 'Now tell me about your childhood' usualy in a German accent. But when you dig into it you begin to see how much of you today was moulded by those years. So some useful insights were gathered.

Then we started talking about some issues and very soon difficult

JAN 4th

Daughter 3's friend slept, Daughter 1 at cinema and daughter 3 at home and he cooked nice dinner for me, him and daughter 3. All quiet and then POW!!!

My parents are called 't**ts and they are not allowed in my house again.... why well dont ask me!!! he says they defend me and my kids and dont care about him... he is just the b*****D that pays for they daughter mmmm.

He went for a drive to calm down and i went to bed in tears again.

What is the matter with him, he is so difficult to understand he has this impenetrable shell, that gets thicker as time goes on. If only he could see I