Tuesday

27^th July 2004

Coming back to the LG’s visit I showed her the holiday video showed her exactly, what C was like a few days earlier prior to admission to hospital.

I am accused by my ex-partner of failing to take him to the doctors before going on holiday. As the evidence in paperwork comes back, the appointment is logged, so are the calls logged back at the doctors surgery it unfolds as: proof that I did take him to seek medical help & advice. After the headmistress rang me to pick him up from school.

I can’t put my finger on what I do not like about this woman

Someone tell me why .

Kids had contact today they came back happy and gave ex2b hugs when they left him.

Grates on me that the hugs were a result of hours of counselling lots of one to one chats with me- ex2b saw it as they love him cos he had taken them out. My sol had described in a letter last week that he wasnt an active father and thats why his relationship with his eldest son has detriorated to say the least. Ex2b glared as usual looked at me loke i was something he had trodded on. I turned my back and closed the door. My kids should be able to wave goodbye but I know he wouldnt respond

No emotional reason other than its getting late and I want to get to bed

Third day at work, pressures and deadlines increasing rapidly.

Went to first councelling session before lunch, most of it very much as I expected, "tell me about your situation" well he should not have given me so much freedom, he got the whole of the last 4 years, warts and all and as a bonus a full analysis of reasons and perceptions on both sides. In the end he appeared to be eager to shut me up and get me out. Good job the company's paying for it. He managed to unsettle me a little once with a response I was not