Am having a series of firsts at the moment - first blog, first time on wikivorce,first time away from daughter etc. Have been married 10 years- not happily for most of them - the marriage was never what i expected it to be. Finally got fed up of trying to be what my husband expected me to be and making myself ill (depression) and told him it was over 3.5 weeks ago. Am still living in family home and therefore absolutely skint. Husband and daughter both on school hols, while im at work, so she spending week there, and weekends with me.So many things to worry about at the moment - money,

Well, it's been 3 days since my last confession .... sorry ..... Blog!

Dont really know how I feel today ..... bit muddled to be honest.  I've had a bit of a 'spat' with him over the last couple of days but woke up this morning to a text that was very nearly an apology!

I saw my Counsellor yesterday, this was only my first real appointment but I do think she is going to be helpful.  I dont know how to accept its over and dont know how to move on.  I'm hoping she can lead me down that path.

She told me not to expect too much, when you have loved someone for 22 years, feelings dont change

Finally found out how to write a new entry! Thanks everyone for the responses to my obessive private detecting. I knew that all this obessive snooping was unhealthy and was feeling so guilty about it. It helps to know that I am not a nasty person and others have been there.I 've been to my brothers house for a few days and it was fantastic being in a place where I was hugged and cared about. I have come back yesterday feeling much more positive. I've decided to go cold turkey, the only way to quit snooping and although I started up his computer, I managed to shut it down without reading his