For those of you who dont know my story, its a case of not letting go, when in reality i should have let go 2-3 years ago. However we can all be guilty of that i guess when you still love that person, even though they no longer love you. You live in a world where you believe it will always get back to how it was when it was good to the extent that you let them control every aspect of your life, socially, mentally, physically, and financially.

I have suffered so much lies and betrayal and just let it wash over me like a fast flowing river. Dont get me wrong we all make mistakes and i prob

First I have the turmoil of what I am going to tell the children; I need to get it clear in my mind before I sit them down and try to explain things. How do you tell 5 young children that their dad doesn't want to see them apart from a phone call once or twice a week? If I knew that he was walking out of their lives for good maybe it would be easier but as he is a law unto himself he may change his tact a few weeks down the line. I know I need to tell them something soon because they are stressed about the "no contact" thing which he instigated on the 30th December 2007. Coupled with 3

And that is not to underestimate what divorce is for those going through it.

Our latest session was last Friday and it is Wednesday today. It has taken me that long to actually gather my thoughts and try and make some sense of them.

It started with me finishing off about my childhood. It's always a cliche in films to have the line 'Now tell me about your childhood' usualy in a German accent. But when you dig into it you begin to see how much of you today was moulded by those years. So some useful insights were gathered.

Then we started talking about some issues and very soon difficult