I have just completed my 6th and final counselling session prior to my assesment with the consultant phyciatrist and the next round of sessions, in total to date i have had 8 sessions. I thought i would like to give my own assesment of where i think i am.

Seeing a phyciatrist conjurs up all sorts of thoughts, your mad, your a failure etc,it scares you shitless just at the thought in the begining, that first meeting is one of the hardest and emotional rollercoasters i have ever been on. I had two 1.5 hours sessions in which to cram 45 years of my life and reel off the issues that brought me in

It will be one year soon since I left my abusive husband...thanks to therapy and my good friends I'm doing unbelievable well...so why!?...why did I have nightmare about him last night (again)?...I think that I feel guilty about the way I left him...

I was trying to tell him for so long that I'm unhappy in the marriage...I was trying to get him to marriage counseling but he wouldn't go...I was getting more and more depressed...I felt like there is nothing I can do...nowhere I can go ...

One morning I left for work as usually...I got panic attack at work and I just never came back home after

i have a few hours at home, finished early after a long conf call with singapore, the house is empty, scott round mates house and sarah in berlin,and i am in a reflective mood.

I dont believe anyone on here has ever not questioned themselves in any process we are going through, but how many admit to finding an answer to those questions which implicates themselves, most of us have been wronged, lied to, cheated on, abused and used, But how many times do we really question ourselves as a contibuting factor to our situations, and have the stregnth to admit that we were part of that demise. I can