I want to know how all of this will end up. So much of what I have read has stressed to focus on the now. To focus on accepting what is. To be at peace with today's reality. I get it. I actually do think that is the healthiest way forward and I am trying to find my center as I slowly move on. Deep down, I know I'll be fine and it'll all work out. I'll still be me and that's pretty good. But I cannot help the impatience. I want to get there NOW. I want to get to the good place NOW. Or at least I want to know what that will look like. Where will I be living, who will I be with, how often will I

so I finally moved in to a one bed flat last monday after agreeing a number of practical issues surrounding children and finances ...leaving the house for the last time was not easy and I guess I never expected that I would end up crying pretty much the whole drive to my new place ...my kids seem to be ok about it now and have been over for dinner already this week which was kind of weird...hopefully we can enjoy our time together....they are spending the weekend here from Friday which is something to look forwarde to .....getting used to being on my lonesome is the tough bit though

I know. I appreciate all of your comments and experiences. I am going to take my wife out on Saturday and we'll see. Knowing me, I have to make sure I did everything I could. I hear what you're all saying. I went and saw my therapist today and I had not seen him in a couple months. It was good and I'll go back for a bit. I get more out of various support groups and friends though. He is useful at giving me exercises on how to feel life more thoroughly and I am very interested in doing that. He seemed to agree that I had to see, to check it out, to try my best. I am a good guy - actually I am