Well thats my option. He has no intention of introducing me to his friends. He said I was pi**ing him off by asking. He said be patient and wait and see. It is his way or no way. I said that was not good enough and unless he had something to hide then surely his friends would be happy to see him reconcile his marriage. He went off on one that I had told a couple of close friends that we had a chance.

Now to me it all says he has something to hide even though he denies it and accuses me of being paranoid. Even if he not sleeping with her he seems to want his single life and with her as the

What weird days these are. I think I am coming out the other end, I woke up this morning and didn't think I want to die, I felt calm. I really did want not to be alive on many days but I kept coming to wiki and peeps always picked me up. Hopefully no panic attacks today either. This improvement can't be the pills yet as they haven't had time to kick in yet. I think the fact I have now been open with the gp about how I feel and taken control has made me feel better. I first thought that I felt better because he was talking about our future and wants to see how things go, but I think it is

I think this has been the worst week I have ever had. After my last blog where he said he didn't love me I hit the bottom. I wouldn't commit suicide but it's what my brain was telling me to do, I was throwing up, non stop crying and well you all know what it's like. It got worse on friday as my 15yr old had enough and went to my sisters. Before people think why didn't I go to the dr before to get help, I couldn't, I was waiting for a medical report to be done for a new job that I start on 1st Oct, I need the job as it is my fresh start and without it I can't afford mortgage. The report was