Well today is the day that I introduce Metalraver to my 5 children, not sure who is the most nervous; me, metal or the children.

 The children all seem very excited to be honest, which is good and we have discussed at some length about meeting Metal (Dave) and him staying over.

None of this new relationship has really fitted the plan that I had about having a new relationship and how I would handle the situation. I had intended to keep the 2 separate for some time to ensure that it was a steady relationship.

Instead my children have spoken to him for quite a while on video chat and talked to him

Just a quick entry to see if telling other people makes it any more bearable.

Wife came round to pick up the kids to take them overnight. That in itself breaks my heart - knowing that I can't just go in and give them a hug.

I left the house as I can't bear to be near her, see her or speak to her at the moment. When I came back I lifted the lid on the laptop.

There were two little notes from my children telling me how much they loved me and hoping that I will have a good night. How can I ever have a good night with them not just somewhere else, but there of all places?

 It hurts so much and I can

Hi to you all, I never thought I would have to write this, hell no, never.

Husband brought kids back from centre parcs today so I invited him in for coffee and divorce chat. Managed to get him talking and yet again told him I knew there was someone else. Instead of denying it, he admitted he has been seeing someone since April. He works 50 miles away and has been going to work at 4am and coming home late and working over night and going out a lot and away ‘hang gliding' for 2 to 4 days at a time. Didn't think it would have been going on since April though!! He met her at the sandwich van which