I am not sure how I am going to get through this but feel writing it down might help!  To all you readinbg this sorry for going on...

I have been with my husband for 25 years in all and married 18 years.  For the last 8 years he was on the internet 'chatting' to other women and left me and the kids 4 years ago for another woman but after 5 weeks came back and said he loved me.  Foolishly I took him back but he refused to go to Relate and we carried on from there me feeling he was going to do it again and him not really being able to offer any reasons that he did it other than he felt lonely. 

So, if you follow my blogs the last you heard from me was that I was heading off to my childrens school to help at the summer fate.....

It was due to start at 15.00 and my ex, who is on the parent, treacher committee thingy,  had asked me to get there early to help set up, she was supposed to be there by 14.00, so I planned to get there about 14.30.

As I pull into the carpark (the playground) I see a dad that I know, he is also seperated with two children at the school, his ex was once close with my ex, so we know it other fairly well.  He is working on the bouncy castle and slide, I go inside