I am taking each day as it comes and today thinking at least I will see the boys tomorrow!!   Been texting them but get upset if they don't reply as I know especially the eldest is constantly texting his mates also don't know what to say....

Feel quite down today and the black cloud down - didn't sleep kept waking and look terrible but come in to work to keep mind off it hopefully.  

Inever would have left my ex even after all the problems as all I ever wanted was to have a family unit and to me marriage was forever.   I couldn't keep my ex happy and now I have lost my boys  to him who ruined

The b'atch has not bothered replying to the finance proposal, I going to assume she is going to use the credit crunch to devaluve the house and her other assets but not my pension.

Summer holidays are nearly here and filling me with dread, she has already said the only reason she is speaking to my parents is so that they can have the kids while she does extra work, should I be happy for her finally getting off her arse, why the hell should I shes pocketing the money.

My parents are both old but love the kids so they are happy to go along with it all but it means I have a round trip of fetch and

My son is four and has lived with his Mum for the past month, I have noticed a change in him recently. 

He and his mother live at his Grandparents in a rough area whilst they are waiting to get housed by  the council. I get on well with the Grandparents but do not feel it is a good environment for my son to be brought up in; every other word in the household is a swear word.  

I am sure his mother discusses me with the Grandmother with my son in ear shot.

She always said her number one priority was our son but I do not believe this to be the case she has racked up another £100 mobile