Ok so what am I doing on here so early?  My bf has just left to fly up to Scotland for the weekend to visit his mum.  Going to miss him so much, but he is back on Monday so only 5 days... here I go again counting down days!!

Well yesterday was a good day.  It was my youngests 4th birthday so had all the excitement of that.  ANd it did rub off on me.  Was wonderful to see his little face light up when he saw his new bike bike 'with brakes!'

It was also the day that my eldest left his primary school education behind.  They had a leavers assembly where each child was personally handed a dictionary

Eldest came at the weekend and said wanted to have a week with me and a week with his dad so I was over the moon thought it was a great idea and would work really well.  Youngest still wants to be full time with his dad.   This week I asked if he had spoken to his dad and he said he wouldn't be pressurised in to it and if I did he would take longer to decide ?!  What do you say to that I am in a constant state of anxiousness.

I am so sure my stbx is feeding them things and turning them against me I hate him but also miss him aswell he was my best friend for so long but now he has left me and

Hi all

     Just need to get a few thingd of my chest .

Yet again just as i was having an up day she has managed to get me crying again

I don't think i have cried in my whole life as much as i have in the last 4 or 5 weeks.

Today she finally told her mother . Well all she told is that WE had decided to separate but for her not to worry and everyone is ok.

Well my 16 year old daughter is handling it very and i am so proud of her .Even as i write this i am in my bedroom, as she has a friend over, she has come into the bedroom to give me a hug as she knows i'm upset again . Should men be this