Been another one of those weekends, didnt have the children, so by today, was gaspin for them, like people who smoke but have run out of fags me thinks.

Had a social ish weekend, went out with mates on Saturday, had a great time, people attempted to pair me off, with single friends, went red, had a laugh, etc.

I have an interview tomorrow, its a second interview, fingers crossed, would be another leap up the ladder financially, and a great opportunity, hope I do well.

Tuesday, is children night, I try and finish early on Tuesdays so I can pick up the kids by 5, I get a call from my ex, asking

I feel like I have made a big mistake today.

I know over the last few weeks I have been \ am totally emotionally unstable, cannot concentrate on anything and liable to break down in tears at the slightest thing especially when letting my mind wander.

This morning we tried to have a conversation but I am in no state to do\ decide anything and my wife is quite rightly getting agitated that nothing is getting resolved especially our child care arrangements which need to be in place very soon.

Anyway it all ended with me agreeing to visit my parents for a few days to try and get my head together

Today's the day

Earlier today my kids went off for the first time to stay at their dad's, and they're gonna be away all week. I thought I would really struggle but managed to get them sorted and off without breaking down. As far as I am aware, and I increasingly think I might be wrong, they think they are spending the week just with their dad and don't know the floosie even exists, let alone that they are (presumably) gonna be forced to spend a whole week with her. Of course it's possible they will come home and say, "dad's girlfriend?, oh we knew about that!!"

Of course they are now getting to