Am currently siting in a hotel room 3am in Tokyo and have been in the chat room for a while.

First serious attempt and thank very much to everyone, I really enjoyed the chat.

So tomorrow I return to Holland to my flat, where I will spend it alone looking at the 4 walls.  On Saturday I get the flight to Durham and will go "home" - if you can call it that. 

I have been doing this weekend thing since Dec 4 2006, weekly commuting to Holland for work and then back again.  Very quickly she decided that it would be better if I went back on a Sunday night and it made it too early for her on a monday..

So

I live in Holland and am getting divorced and would very much like to give the opportunity to the children to stay with me.

How does this work with the courts and what chances have I

I think this has been the worst week I have ever had. After my last blog where he said he didn't love me I hit the bottom. I wouldn't commit suicide but it's what my brain was telling me to do, I was throwing up, non stop crying and well you all know what it's like. It got worse on friday as my 15yr old had enough and went to my sisters. Before people think why didn't I go to the dr before to get help, I couldn't, I was waiting for a medical report to be done for a new job that I start on 1st Oct, I need the job as it is my fresh start and without it I can't afford mortgage. The report was