Well,I suppose I should keep one, it might come in use.

I've read a couple of other peeps blogs on here, and some of the tales are simply heartbreaking - I do sometimes wonder if such abusive people can really exist, and also feel awed at the charity and forgiveness their victims are capable of expressing despite their horrendous experiences.

Thankfully my tale is not so dark. For those interested in the reader's digest version:

met.

got drunk. alot.

got engaged.

got married.

got mortgaged.

got child.

she got annoyed with my 'negligence'.

i got annoyed with her whining.

got bigger mortgage.

headed

i guess it was bound to happen sooner or later, but when it does it dont make it any easier. You see my STBX and her BF are trying to play happy families with his boys and scott my son, all along so far they have not wanted to be with their dad when she has been around. However that has changed and they will now stay at his place when she is there. Now one of the boys was my sons best friend untill all this happened, but they are in the same class at school and still play with each other, and he has stayed with me on numerous occasions- no problem there. However i am in bloody germany and

Wow, next week is going to be such a mix of emotions!

Tuesday, well this determines whether the smiles keep coming for a very long time or not. I believe now, that this is almost a forgone conclusion, but nothing is ever certain in life. But I am as certain as anyone can be that life is going to get a whole lot better. Watch this space!

well at the other end of the spectrum, Wednesday sees me attending court in Norwich 25 miles away for a Contested Interim Contact Hearing, which has been allocated 3 hours. I have to leave all my kids, my 1 year old especially, all day. My friend is lovely, but