I may as well start from the beginning.

We met on a blind date, I was 17 he was 18, he proposed after five weeks and I laughed at him.   Looking back I realise all he ever wanted was to marry someone.  I got engaged to him on my 19th birthday just to make him feel more secure.  My family didn't think he was good enough for me, of course, their opposition had the reverse effect.  I ended up marrying him when I was 22, and things were reasonably good.

He is obsessed with football.  Over the years it took up more and more of his time.  But he always "allowed" me Friday evenings to go to my

Hi Mr Blogman

 Realised today that it is my wedding anniversary.........not from my s2bx but from my first husband.  I met him not long after moving down to Cornwall from Lancashire, where I left my true love who I thought was then (we ended up married like after 20 odd years apart).

So anyway this would have been our  20th wedding anniversary, had we stayed together...my first husband, who I have 2 lovely children with...a daughter now 21 and a son age 18.   My little one at home was from my second marriage, and he is 11.

I am now divorcing my 3rd hubbbie who was my childhood sweetheart, but 23

I don't know how much more I can take. What is wrong with me, why am I being treated like this? Just a few short months ago, everything was fine or so I thought. Now everything is so bad I don't want to carry on because where am I going to end up? I know he is going to come out of this on top I can feel it. I am left to pick up the pieces and expected to go along with everything he says.

Both kids do not want contact with him at the moment and I have tried to convince them that he is still their dad and he loves them etc etc, but they are both adamant that they want nothing to do with him.