What is it that I am hiding from..........

 

I changed my name to hide but what is it im hiding from.... If it was my x2b on the site then hes probably read all my blogs and found out who my friends are................he will know where I come for my help and support........he will have had a glimpse of how hes made me feel.........he will see lots of people who hurt.............and lots of people who care for each other so much.........what can he do to make me feel worse...........

 

If I run away from wiki what will I give up............my friends who I love very much..........my ability to

First, I want to answer some comments made in my previous blog entries.

Over analysing… OK, very probably I over analyse on almost all situations. The thing is, when you’re living the bad dream, then it’s so easy to try to work out every situation to its’ last nut and bolt.

So, if I’m bugging you by that, I’m sorry. I do take it on board, and I do know it’s happening, but for me this blog is my therapy. I will refer, even print off, all of this for use later. I need to be precise. Get it right.

Next, I’m coming into the Chat Room soon. Thing is, as a “work-at-home” dad, the kids are around, so I

I have had two weeks without my DD's who have been in america with their father.  I had a week in Spain with my family and bf.  On the whole it has been hard (missing the girls, him not making it easy to contact them and still being sarcastic and snide) but I had a wonderful time away and the contact with STBX has been minimal (hooray).

He has tried to control me still, but friends and family have all been giving me a talking to about the fact that I am still influenced by my fear of his reactions to me moving on.  My parents, my family, my friends all say - stop being controlled by him and