Dear Blog

Had a day off work today as I suddenly realised my car hadn't been MOT'ed something he would normally sort. didn't matter only 2 months late!! Passed no troubles so all ok.

Was lying in bed this morning and the sun was shining through the curtains and I felt really sad. he had gone to work??? at 5am was so tired didn't hear him come upstairs to brush his teeth. perhaps he didn't lol!

I sent him a text:

Remember everyday no matter what i've said i will always love you til the end.

I was always proud to be your wife, that is how i feel.

And some day when you're are far and away and we're

Dear Blog

couldn't write yesterday too upset. so will do now although the full strength of it has gone.

bad day

started good - harriet and darren back and stayed, in the morning it was great, oliver and chenise, harriet and darren me and georgia - felt like a family again. Last all together in 12 august my birthday!

went to work and was stressed.  boss is moody and tired and we suffer!

came home to loads of messages from friends, divorce him, stop the divorce, try, don't try, do this do that..... it all spins in my head and I feel out of control.  Yes I am divorcing him and no i can't stop it

Those following this blog will know I am pushing hard for equal residence for our children.  This is not easy on any of us, made worse by still all living in the same house.  Thats another story but has got to be addressed as soon as possible.  It's now almost intollerable and certainly not good for the children.  Roll on 24th when we have the first hearing.

Cafcass are interviewing the children this week.  stbx is pretty unhappy about this.  cannot accept them being brought into the whole thing but frankly what did she expect when saying she wanted it all decided by a judge.  I really don't