Don't really want to write much ..... my husband moved out today.  After months of sort of trying to put things behind me I cannot forgive him and move on.  he has not helped in this by not making me feel more secure.  I am supposed to just think that its over and she has gone away, although I am not too sure about this.

Pleaded with him to come home at 8 pm last night instead of working over and being with her - but no - wouldn't do it - when he finally came in at 10.30 pm I was really upset and hysterical - so I have messed up - driven him away.

Last week he was nice had time off to be with

Never written a blog before, but this seems like a good idea right now and will hopefully be something to look back on when my head stops spinning like a washing machine!! Needless to say that confused is only one of several emotions I feel at the moment.

My wife and I married three and a half years ago. She had been diagnosed as type one diabetic about six months before, at the time, we'd been together for around 12 years, we had both just turned 30 and decided now was a good time to tie the knot.  We had a small wedding as we'd already lived together for four years.

Just over a year after

  Well the last few days haven't been that bad. Yes I'm sad and my emotions feel as though they've been in the ring with Mike Tyson, yes bitten ear included. I suppose that I'm starting to come to terms with it. I know that there is no way back, and that it has come to the end. You have no idea how much that hurts to admit. I went into this marriage thinking that this would be it, that we'd grow old together. We'd be the old couple that you see walking hand in hand sat by the beach or walking down the street. How wrong was I.

  Spoke to my mum on the phone this afternoon. She's sad and upset