I agreed his offer for divorce settlement...

People said I would take more settlement but I didn't care the money or property, even his police pension. I don't have enought money at the moment to take him to the court, I mean, I can't pay legal fee. So as for me, if I have get debt for legal fee, I wouldn't take him to the court.  I know..he might has to pay me 20K more or less at least, but how much I have to pay to solicitor? 10K? 15K?  Of course I could make him financial problem to pay me 20K  , but it is not my purpose.

He pays me 5K , that's all. And he promised he doesn't sell the

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Thank you for all the support I have received from my wonderful friends.

Been feeling really low and unreal - my mum and dad tell me to put a brave face on and smile and i will feel better - true I know, I will try harder!!!  People have been very kind and nice to me, very kind - my friends seem to have been nicer to me than my husband has - what does that say?

What is love ? my mum asked me what attracted me to him in the first place? hell I was 15 that's another life!!! what keeps me attracted - I don't know - the security, the partnership aspects, the companionship - like my mum

I admit it, i admit defeat, i hold my hands up and say i did not think divorce and happy children were a warzone that cannot be penetrated until someone waves the white flag.....why do i say that.....because i have never saw my divirce or my childrens welfare as a battle or a fight to the death. I didnt think this was about point scoring or having control over the other party. I always thought it was just a way of admitting you no longer get on but still allowing the children to remain in a happy stable environment. I NOW KNOW THIS IS NOT THE CASE, I NOW KNOW THIS IS JUST A FARCE, I NOW KNOW