OK, this is a really short bolg. Still, so sad, sad, sad. Does anyone else see their ex with a new partner and think, 'hold on, it's easy to blame but, God I wish I'd made moe effort, wish I'd made it come

Hi Was chatting to Young Again last night and as I'm at the beginning of the nightmare thought it would be usedful to try this. Background - married 16 years. 13 yr old daughter (autistic) and 9 year old son. I have a good job - wife worked until Dec 10 and hasn't worked since. On Jan 7 I found a christmas card from my wifes lover. For several days she said she wanted to save the marriage and then after seeing a friend a few days later decided she wanted to leave me. I became depressed - got anti depressents and since then have been in work, off work, in work - difficult to

I have been doing everything possible to get through the days to keep the destructive thoughts at bay and Kelly Clarkson's song "What doesn't kill you..." is AWESOME and I crank up the volume while doing housework. Very cheap therapy but very effective too. I should send this song to stbx to rub it in. This has become my daily mantra. Hope it helps others too. Below are the very insightful lyrics. You know the bed feels warmer
 Sleeping here alone
 You know I dream in colour 
 And do the things I want You think you got the best of me
 Think you had the last laugh
 Bet you