Guess what - today has not been much better.

Wife is now using nanny to drive her to the station.

At work I actually had the thought that my wife had changed her mind (absolutely no idea where it came from) and I was able to smile for a few minutes until reality set in again.

When I get home I find out from the nanny that my wife has decided to work late and stay over in London. (I suspect it has more to do with not wishing to be in the same house as me) anyway I am left to relieve the nanny and spend some quality time with the kids (at least that's a result).

However the biggest issue of the

Yesterday was one of the most stressful I have had to endure since being asked to leave.

Several months ago before all this blew up I booked a family outing for my wife, 2 eldest children and myself  - train to London - King Tut exhibition at the O2 - cinema - boat trip on Thames - and meal before train home.

Although we had had a bit of a row the previous day I persuaded my wife that she had to come as the kids had been looking forward o this treat for a long time and anyway was it not her that wanted us to still do things as a family.

Bad move - on the train if her face had been any longer

well back from my holiday, and trying to keep things moving forward.. got the consent order giving me my right to the house proceeds and I am faltering and struggling.

Have forms to complete from the solicitor and forms to complete about the house sale,all needing to be done before house goes on the market.I am stalling, trying to find time to fill the damn forms in but just struggling with every day things at the moment.Keep feeling very tired and keep waking up at 4am, and then falling asleep early evening.

Today I was over at my parents and had to listen to how they and my sister never