Well I was up and down moodwise all day.Wanting to cry for what could have been and happy in a way that I wasn't with s2bx.

Mostly felt better when I saw his 'woman' out  and was still chuckling, can't believe he would rather be with someone that old and ugly rather than me.She must be like cuddling his mother.. his mum died a few years back and I am sure this is the attraction.

Took my son out for a MC D and thats when we saw her, not that she acknowledged son(I have cut his hair and he looks very different and she would have only seen him from behind.)

When I came back home, I kept myself

a huge THANKYOU to all you luvly people who so kindly wished me birthday greetings last nite .........well this morning lol having a great day had macdonalds brekfast with my daughter and listened to her storys of her holiday and her boyfriend!!!!!! how she missed him so etc...etc its so funny her talking to me as if i dont know what its like !!!!

i did get a slap or two for taking the mickey but only in jest ! oh i feel all warm inside now!!! seeing her was just what i needed i think and think she was pleased to be with me allbeit for a short time

she's off camping with her boyfriend and his

I know that all of what is to follow is going to make me sound really selfish but here I go................

I turn 30 on Sunday and whilswt part of me is dreading it, being 30, alone with a 3 and 1 year old, part of me was looking forward to it.  I was kind of looking forward to it and seeing it as the start of a new chapter in my life.

 This evening I had a phone call from my sister-in-law, we were chatting away talking about this kids and various other things.  She then mentioned that my ex and his new girlfriend had had their first baby scan last week.  It totally floored me.  He told me she