well yesterday the 30th would have been my 4th wedding anniversary and i thought it was going to be horrendous.

I asked for extra shifts so i didn't have time to be at home pondering, and when i finished work my mates rang me to take me to the pub.

I didn't really want to go but knew they would never give in asking, i'm glad i did i had a good laugh and we toasted the fact that i have a second chance at happiness in my life.

I now know that it wasn't my fault that my marriage ended, that i didn't deserve the rubbish i got of him for the years we where together and i certainly don't deserve the

Hi Mr Blogman

 Realised today that it is my wedding anniversary.........not from my s2bx but from my first husband.  I met him not long after moving down to Cornwall from Lancashire, where I left my true love who I thought was then (we ended up married like after 20 odd years apart).

So anyway this would have been our  20th wedding anniversary, had we stayed together...my first husband, who I have 2 lovely children with...a daughter now 21 and a son age 18.   My little one at home was from my second marriage, and he is 11.

I am now divorcing my 3rd hubbbie who was my childhood sweetheart, but 23

At last I have got round to writing again. (Oh no I hear you cry!!)

It was my birthday last Wednesday, and what a day it was - I cried and sobbed all morning, then went to see a solicitor in the afternoon. Then I cried again all night. Thought I might have got a text, or even best wishes sent via my daughter, but not a word, and I know he wouldn't have forgotten. Oh well, better that way I tell myself, but I don't believe myself.

Thursday was a strange day, as I work from home doing accounts for my ex2b's company, I have an accountant lady to visit once every two months. Husb had to come and